THIS IS VERY NICE...






LOVE THIS SONG..........

this is what i watch when i have nothing to do... its super interesting. its physics yeah... and i love it, but i suck at sec4 physics. so how how?????? this i something i really want to pursue in life too. besides philosophy/psychology... sobs... mr chun make me physics A1!!!!

hai... was reading liyana yeo's blog. in case many dont know who is that. she was our sec4 CSM who took my part when i was in part B. back then, we were called cutie pies! haha! so miss the days....read her past posts. makes me wonder how i will react on my last 'speech' with part my B's... i think i can barely even look at them. i will just like burst out in tears or something... hai... i love you all part B's! seriously my drive to come for ncc is you people. :D



ps/ once a sea cadet, always a sea cadet.

IMBACK!!!!!!

haha, hey people! today no NCC! but got 3 hours meeting...lol. I LOVE PART D's! seriously hilarious la. me and nazirul keep on irritating mardiah about ERHERM*. LOL. and Weiting as usual wil be like bullying jie jian the whole time...see already just want to laugh... and of cause, all of us were HORNY! haha, you can imagine the nonsensical stuff we talked about.... so blah blah blah. mr azhar came into the room and talked to the staffs, about the usual stuff la. so we just commented and listen lor. :D.

anyway... mr chun.... if your seeing this. i just want to say. You play badminton very cute! HAHA. but please la mr chun, go wear the pe kinda pants lei... wear that long business pants how to be flexible? tsk.... anyway... today mr chun kick people out of class. I NEVER GET KICK OUT XIA! i did my physics homework!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! and i must comment on a particular someone... super pro.... call teacher to back them up. hahaha. *smiles* hahahahha!

damn... i so really got nothing to say... i remember the pass few days quite exciting one. but i just clearly cannot remember... tsk... i shall try to post constantly like i used to after common test bah. i hate forgettting stuff. well kinda tired. so i shall just go sleep now first. CIAO PEOPLE!



p.s/ people on my tagboard are so cute! HAHA

alright, sorry my readers. im so not doing justice to my blog. 7days never post liao. shall just keep it short bah. need to go nap... just came back from tuition which started at 9. so its like 5 hours...excluded lunch time. later still must do homework, tmr morning must go UG camp meeting.


yup yup, been falling ill so easily these days. still adapting to the burn midnight oil to do homework kinda lifestyle.

so yesterday was NCC day. DUH... well i was assigned to part A CSM. i really realise that i am like both an angel and a demon at the same time. like some stuff i super strict some stuff i super nice about. scold scold scold like crap(you can ask eunice,louisse,shicheng,jeremyyeo,maybelline,keneth,zhenlin) BUTTTTTTT....somehow...in the end of training they still give me their wonderful smiles and go "bye staff sergeant! :D" wah so happy. like having my own CCA kids like that. my part B like all grow up liao. LOL. not that i dont want you liao la part B. but its like i think i have done my part for you all. so even if im no longer gonna be your CSM again(not confirmed yet.)i know you all will do well and go far. ya thats all bah. shall not elaborate.


anyways...HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ONE AND ALL! :D

sad right? i stuck at home having tuition... should be like going out and spending time with people... tsk... well... O level will soon whiz by, by then i will enjoy. now is just time to suffer. :D

see i so good. immediately i post again. anyway.im so tired. dont know why. considering i slept for like 12 hours. (got home at 8 yesterday slept till 8 this morning. i go home then bathe liao just bomb! drop on bed and sleep. din care bout anything. well i did actually...woke up at 10 and did something...then went back to sleep again. feeling calmer than usual. thank you. :D) but then....morning wake up. realised...SHIT! is saturday... so as usual...my mom will like nag at me again. the same thing. that tuition does not help me. its the thing that keeps me from dedicating my full time to doing my own school homework. and she just wont listen. she just keeps telling me what she feels.not caring bout how i feel. you think i really like sleeping so late everyday meh? AND STOP TRYING TO ATTACK MY CCA. NO WAY IM QUITTING AT THIS TIME.NCC DOES NOT MAKE ME SO TIRED.ITS BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN SLEEPING SO LATE FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS. CANT I AT LEAst JUST CATCH UP ON SOME SLEEP?urgh.......
SO ANYWAY....
COMPLAINS AGAIN!!!!!

alright, just some complains im sure every single person can relate with me. i just happen to realise them. so i shall name them out.


1. okay i feel this way because i was still numb from emotions from the night before.you know sometimes your like still a little upset bout something. but when you wanna go hawker centre. and ask for a sit. you have to like pretend to smile and show a super glad face to ask fro that seat? (I HEAR YOU ALL GOING. YA!)

2.you know sometimes you are like sitting at your sit, then you wanted to like take your wallet out? and you accidentally elbow someone's butt? and you expect them to say sorry. and yet, they glare back at you too? and you think like. "well. if you had not walked like the whole pathway is yours, and if you would at least have take the chance to go get some exercise maybe your ass wont be so big and i would not have elbowed into it."


3.last one, sometime you know when you get back change? and you stretch out your hand already, you wanted the person to give the coins to your hand. so you can swiftly put into your wallet. and then?they put on the table purposely. and you go like. " wth are you blind or something? or deaf?"


yup, thats all for today. CIAO PEOPLE! another time perhaps i will give a calmer more happier post.



p.s/ i was ending my tuition, so when i walked out of the room...i saw the bookshelf. there was a bible there.so i just felt i had to pick it out. basically, just like that...im reading the bible now..im now on like...erm... the first page. LOL. im reading the PREFACE> lame i know...but who cares. i believe its soup for my damaged soul. ciao people! :D

HI PEOPLE, IM BACK.though i am kinda feeling crappy... lets look back at what happened shall we?

as some of you all might know, yesterday was friday. so...got NCC training...duh...so i was kinda not happy that got 2 staff sergeants not there. leaving me and weiting only. plus a little more other instructors only. further more, i was temporarily changed from B CSM to A CSM. so i took the sec1s for their orientation training from the hall. damnit la, the processing super slow. first of all, planning was 2.30+ can get the sec1s from the hall liao. mdm Fadilah? talk talk talk....talk until 3.10 then only finish.

so i ask them to mark their attendance once they settle down. later on cannot find my tape. dammit Land go take from us. so i ask them go back NCC room and put down first bags lor. and then must put tape and write name that time. Ms Yee came.( she was having remedial before that). Ms Yee" Josh! i give you so much time! the tape with their names still not even written ah! can you faster anot?" that sentence i not happy liao. somemore only got one marker to go around. and she start complaining about me xia...wth... i mean i was so stressed out to be part A CSM okay. like wth, i din even know got nominal roll. make me like an idiot in the canteen got write down the 33 names. nvr even eat lunch properly. i under so much stress how to think properly the right thing to do?


fine... so after that she continued. Ms Yee:" Josh! i ask you do the thing and then how come i see Yiren doing!?!?!?!" WTH?!?!??!?!! i briefing them on the activity what??? how you want me do both at the same time? besides, an instructor posted to part A means can help me right? its not like i ask Yiren go eat shit or wash toilet right? he is just doing his duty oso what? so nvm, i briefing did it quick. and went on the help Yiren. after that i was helping them write their names, cause THEY ARE BLOODY SEC1S!!!! SENSE OF URGENCY IS NO INSTILLED IN THEM YET! LOOK AT MY PART B? I GOT NEED TO SHOUT AT THEM ANOT? NO RIGHT? BUT IS STILL BECAUSE THEIR 2ND YEAR IN NCC,SO INSTILLED IN THEM LIAO.



sec1s are so lucky ms HO is their teacher IC, Ms Yee go there scold liao. of cause they scared already la. alright, so from here, Ms Yee scold me twice already.so after that i give last briefing. you know me, i dont like to give briefing half way, i want make sure they really understand what im saying. but...halfway i talk. Ms Yee interupt me. ask me to run off liao. she will just start the race now. then i was like just try to finish talking. and then.... Ms Yee:"JOSH! GO! WHAT YOU WAITING FOR! I SAY GO RIGHT! 5!4!3!2!....." so counting properly. she scolded me 3 times. what i dont like is that she scolded me so freaking loudly i front of the sec1s. confirm i "FISHED!" up la!


so i run run, in the end just go upper parade square instead. sian......look at part B Land do drills. thinking if they are my cadets i will dammit scold them like shit. given my mood i will at least make one of them cry. so saw GB doing some game thing. walk away...blahblahblah, talk to jacelyn. she give me that lunatic look. so i calm down abit and allowed myself laugh. then when she running i started going. "Jacelyn! you can run?" lol...this part all i still relaxed la, another thing hor, CLIFF IS AN IDIOTIC SERGEANT.



tell you what he did... got his junior coming late.(please take not, all stuff said from cliff mouth was given in his usual guai-lan sound) so he question his junior. his junior was like explaining. and they keep interupting. i scold them, hey cliff, you all dont so bastard can. let him a chance to explain la. so he explain and keep stuttering like hell, so i was like cannot help him liao..... so cliff did the most idiotic thing. Cliff:"DOUHAN! you look down for what? why you late also you dont know? you what?go script on the floor ah? where is it ah? (cliff squat down and brushes floor" wth right???



so until then i still continue to watch land. went to sit at flag pole. all the sec2 there. then jeremy yeo all of a sudden shout. " Part B! I GIVE YOU ALL 5 MINUTES!!!(stern face)............and you all fall-in back on time(smiles)!" QIAN DA RIGHT JEREMY!


last one. after that i try to be funny... i go infront of their platoon. and i said. all those who think you are a hottie fall out! and then all the sec4s start walking up to me....wah lau....no shame sia....i should be the only one ....:D

5o'clock that time i go back find part A. then got one ask me where is Haqiz. so i told him its sir Haqiz. think what? Haqiz your friend ah? and he said yes...wtH....i wanted to slap him.


Second last crappy thing of the day. i found out. im most probably no longer the part B CSM?!?!??!?!??!??!urgh...i wanted to like break down please....partB are like my precious gems... my prized possession. and now just like that im no longer their CSM. SO UNTIL ITS TO LATE...BYEBYE PART Bs. i enjoyed being with you all. you made my later part of NCC life worth remembering. thank you all. continue to strive and work hard okay?




THE LAST THING OF THE DAY THAT PISSED ME OFF.


sorry, i wont tell anybody this...i shall just move on to other things. its just a familymatter. so YES, i was angry at my family members. URGH..... thinking abt it already makes me so irritated again...all i know is, my anger is like a ticking time bomb. when i angry...i am really really angry and can blow my shitting top off and scold everyone i know.at least not all everyone.... well that all.... another post coming up. to compensate fro lack of post...

i know i know. you all missed me right? been really really emotionally affected and tarnished recently. life IS NOT a bed of roses huh. well we just gotta live it without regrets i guess. :S anyway....do this quiz for fun lor then after that back to chionging my maths. tagged by shicheng one btw...


1. Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your name.-Sanctimonious


2. Who are you missing right now?- my old self


3. Your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you say?- Hi! how's life been treating you?


4. How many bedrooms are in your house?- 3


5. Is there a reason for your profile song?- i love oldies


6. Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?- (Nurul Mardiah) yes, she too horny liao.try to seduce me... :P


7. Who was your last text message from?- Boonitchasin Wasin


8. What time did you wake up this morning?- 6.30am


9. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?- Yes


10. Did you mean it when you said "i love you" last?- Yes


11. Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?- Hell No,its an act of affection/love for that special someone,not to even a close friend or worse still a stranger is acceptable

12. What is wrong with you now?- fed up that everything that happens in the house or has happened can be linked to something that becomes my fault.


13. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?- (26 by then) Yes, most probably

14. Would you kiss someone to make your ex gf/bf mad?- people like that are scum


15. Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?- YES

16. Do you use T9, word or abc?- T9


17. Do you tell your mum everything?- 50-50


18. Who was the last person you cried in front of?- elder brother


19. Have you told anybody you loved them today?- i was looking at the person in the mirror when i said it, can't remember who its is already.

20. Who can you trust?- my loved ones.


21. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?- cheek?


22. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?- Pissed

23. Who was the last person you took a picture of?- (my cousins, too many liao, got like 17+ of them)

24. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?- NO


25. Would you ever donate blood?- YES


26. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?- YES


27. Do you want someone dead?- YES

28. What does your last text message says?- Wasin nvm liao, the answer sheet wrong, its 2M not 2KM.


29. What are you thinking right now?- Will i get any sleep tonight?

30. Do you wish someone was with you right now?- YES

31. What time did you go to sleep last night?- 1


32. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?- (pajamas) ROBINSONS i think

33. Is someone on your mind right now?- YES


34. Who was the last person to text you?- notice... its the same question as no. 7... Boonitchasin Wasin



lazy to do the last few liao. so waste my time. lol. going to do maths. byebye