THIS GOES OUT TO THE PERSON WHO HAS NO COMPASSION OR FEELINGS FOR ANOTHER OTHER LIVING PERSON WHATSOEVER.

Alright,lets start on why i was not very happy yesterday. i make it short okay?1week+ ago,i signed myself up to go for shooting competition. I TOLD, I REPEAT, I TOLD MY PARENTS ALREADY. And so, i was liking PROMISING i would be going to attend the competition. And well, last Friday or so, my younger brother developed an eye infection. which made his eye lids swell up and turn red.(EW!)Which was okay, cause i thought it was a small thingy which would recover soon. BUT TODAY, i am suppose to be a shooting competition conducting by NCC HQ. And well, my younger brother whose eye infection that apparently is passable(don't know medical term :S) has not recovered, so my father who has been staying home the pass 2 days to take care of him of course must go work today already right! So im here to take care of him like what a lovable brother would do:S. Now the piss me off part. yesterday, after knowing i had to take care of him today, i had to quickly reach out for another person to replace me(THANKS SO MUCH YIREN!:D), and although i did, i still got a message from that person. telling me how he/she cannot trust my promises anymore, how i always have NO SHOW for competitions, how with my rank i should not let my unit down.how my merits in the past will all be gone. And i was seriously like...wat ...the...HELL?!?!?!?

TRUTH BE TOLD PEOPLE, no offence... in a live n death situation, i would rather trade 2/3/4/5/6.... of my cadets for my younger brother, i mean really when it boils down to that scenario,i will take my chances with my brother, you can keep your other people for all i freaking care. i have no choice cant you see?can i help it i have a freaking controlling parents? or can i predict my brother will have a crappy eye infection that wont go away? This is a comparison between two things where the winner is clear, MY FAMILY of course la!Going to the competition is like telling my parents straight in the face i should leave my younger in the house for 8-9 hours by himself. Or like telling your own mother im gonna run away from home and never come back cause i hate you. WONT THEY FREAK OUT?!?!?!

I guess sometimes we have to forgive and forget huh...but honestly to that person. i was really hurt by those words that pin pointed at me. Its was like hammering me in the face with the buttstock of the M16 rifle. Or stabbing 12cm bayonet knife inside me.i really hope you can open up yourself and try to understand us better. maybe then we will like you BETTER.thank you.

and to all:my juniors,fellowcadets or seniors, when you all see this. i want you all to know, i love NCC, i do. but not because of the drills or theory or ropes or whatever. Its doing all that and doing it TOGETHER, spending time together. when we are bonded. thats why i love NCC. and no one can take that away from US.when we're together, we can win together and play together. :D. We may not win competitions which i do think is important. but we sure as hell can kick ass together as one. to serve with pride and dedication. NCC! :D

To all:sorry for the long post though i said it would be short... haha. at least now i feel better. peace.



P.S.Its raining now, and i love it. :)